Huh.

That last post is the current leader of comments on my Lj, even if I did write half of them myself.

Anyway...I read another person's posts that they were, in effect, 'cleaning up' their friends list. Without checking, I started to reply saying how I understood completely, when an unusual thought struck me and I checked his friend list. I'm still on it. This makes the second time something like this has happened, and it makes me rethink whatever value I have of myself each time.

...I really need to get over this self-esteem issue thingummajig. If I keep it up, everyone else really will start to think of me the same way I perceive myself, and I'll end up alone even on the net.

Even if most human contact has made me want to either curl up in a ball, fold myself into another dimension, or eliminate the species, that doesn't mean I want to be permanently alone and away from everyone forever (whatever my family thinks). I might make extra personalities and remove same every so often, but it's not like they could play FF:CC with me or anything. (The best we can do is play Masters of Orion and turn-based stuff like that. And we'd all cheat.) n_-