What am I supposed to think of this?

Recently read "In The Company of Ogres" by A. Lee Martinez. The last few lines in one of the chapters really hit home with me. "...he did what what men without hope who have not quite given up yet have done since the dawn of time. He waited."

I realized that's what I'd been doing the last few years.* But it's not like I can just decide to have a purpose, gain hope for the future (my own or in general) and move on and have a happy life.** I can't honestly say I'm having a bad life, either. Pathetic makes for the best one-word description.



*Later I figured out how normal that is, which I found depressing.
**Some people - for all I know, all of them - might be able to do this. But it's not in me to be able to do such a thing.

Homestuck speculations

First notice: The following may or may not make sense to anyone besides myself as I type this. I'll try to make it so that - if I read this later - it'll make sense to future-me. No guarantees. Everything here pertains to Homestuck.

( Spoilers in the area. )

More will follow as I think things up, that I don't see other people mention first. Given that I don't spend much time on that forum, there's a lot I don't see people say about it.

Finally, a quote from the MSPA forum:

Q: When has Homestuck ever made sense?

A: Always.
As I've been explaining to a friend, the 'confusing' things are simply plot points that haven't resolved yet; the difference between 'confusing' and 'elaborate' is forethought. A confusing story (i.e. Lost) throws out plot points simply to attract attention, and leaves the writers scrambling to resolve everything later. An elaborate story sets up all of its dominoes early on, setting up more and more and more until it finally tips one over and a great mural celebrating ethnic diversity spreads out before you in black and white.
To complete the analogy, the writer of a confusing story sets up small sections of dominoes; when he realizes that they're about to hit a dead end, he has to scramble to set up more, never showing a larger plan.