Neaty.

[sparksol]

Get your own spectral analysis from Area 23®

Other than that, I've come to a realization. I've liked to describe myself using a passage from The Last Unicorn, just before they entered the town of Hagsgate. Schmendrick said, "I am no man. I'm a magician with no magic, and that is no one at all."

A magician (or wizard, sorcerer, etc.) would be someone who has things they want to do, something to accomplish, and the tool of choice is magic. A magician with no magic has things to do, will to use, and no way to do what they want.

Over the last few years, completing recently, something nasty has happened to me. I noticed the power I have. Almost like the powder between the bullet and the casing.

I'm not a magician with no magic, I'm magic with no magician. I could do anything, but there's nothing I want to do...

Comments

[masstreble.livejournal.com]

First, let us get the obligatory "Whee! You posted again!" treatment out of the way. With that behind us, I'd like to say that I know what it is like to be without a big Will in the world: I spent most of high school that way. I didn't grow out of it, either! I just attempted to do something I wanted to do, and found that I could not do it to my satisfaction. (Stupid art! XO ) Perhaps it was because nothing challenged me that I felt, well, unchallenged. A system without input just sits there, after all. Of course, I'm not saying something as crass as "you should get a hobby", but rather that you should hang in there because you don't know what you're going to do next, kind of a like Dick Tracy. In fact, yes, you are your own Dick Tracy. We're all our own Dick Tracy, except most of us don't understand our own motivations.

[winterwing.livejournal.com]

"...most of us don't understand our own motivations."

Oh. That explains a few things. :D

[guido-jacobs.livejournal.com]

First of all, I'd like to say, "Woo! Brown light!"

Second, I feel the same way. Even if there's nothing you really want to do, I still suggest seeing what you are capable of doing...If you are magic, find a spell to cast, if you understand the idea.

[sparksol.livejournal.com]

First, "Brown light"?

Second, I can influence the weather indirectly, taking a period of weeks to show any result; so there's some weather control that needs tuning.

I can devise entire fictional cultures, but no individuals and I can make maps of places that don't currently exist; this suggests some creation ability.

I seem to influence public electrical lights, such as streetlamps and stoplights; this might suggest some odd patterns in my personal magnetic field.

Definite probability oddities in my presence, especially around people who share my first name. I don't see much use for this, as it's uncontrolled. If I found more control in it, vegas or lotteries might figure in to my future.

[guido-jacobs.livejournal.com]

On my thing, it looks like some sort of brownish-tinted light.

Second, I think that's just luck...or electrical skill.

[spiffymouse.livejournal.com]

Okay, first off I must say good reference to one of my ol' time favorite movies (in which I do currently own both the DVD and VHS version), and I too know how you feel.

When I was in high school, I sometimes would repeat that saying in my head because it seemed that almost all of my friends had their life and goals in perspective and there I was with too many ideas, but I had no clue on what to pursue because I could find way to many positive and negative points that each idea came down to the point of "Will it make me happy within myself that I will feel that my job was worth while doing?" and "Will I have the enjoyment of going to work because to me it feels like I do NO work at all because it's something that I take enjoyment in doing everyday?"

I have yet to finally decide on what the answers are to those questions, but so far with this new job I have, I do enjoy it very much and the time sure does fly by as of right now, but the enjoyment isn't there because I have to constantly stand because we aren't allowed to have seats to sit on behind the counter. (I work in a movie theatre, in the Box Office, or otherwise I sell all those expensive tickets and fix our polls with extendable straps whenever kids decide to play with them and leave them reeling back the strap so that there is a big gapping hole where people can just cut in line wherever they please.

Sorry it's so long, but you know me. Once I start typing, I can't shut up! ;-)

[sparksol.livejournal.com]

Onthe job subject, I'm looking for something I can stand to do, that can stand me working there even if I am a bit weird even when I try not to be, and that doesn't pull this kind of stupid excuse for management.